New addition.

I'm not a fan of names.

I hate that I have to come up with a new little name for everything.

I can't remember anyone's name until I associate some memory with them, and it often becomes a marker of how little I share with someone if, after a time, I still have to call them buddy or boss or big dog or dude or captain and Ive circled them over and over.

Sometimes I call a person I know by the wrong name, which threatens their very being.

I'm tuned out, avoidant, humbled by my own blunt instrument.

I've never felt connected to any name attached to me by myself or anyone else.

It does not feel natural to me.

I am a cloud, an industrial accident, a pill, a well timed fondue fork.

My names are bureaucratic.

They are for documents and handbills.

And you're never a name to me either.

You're the smile I see when I feel remembered.

You're the work story I had to tell others when you weren't around (always credited, but does it matter?).

You're that bridge you wrote where you send your voice high and I was about to cry in cbgb can you imagine.

I'm sensitive.

I have a tendency to be lazy.

I don't care enough about money.

I say the wrong thing constantly, and the wrong thing is always more specific and nuanced.

I keep talking.

Sometimes the air is humid and there's so much possibility on the street and I sit there and stare.

I edit the word "just" out of everything and still write it constantly.